Me.Time…. part 1

I bet you are “dying”to know more about me ūüėČ right?…Just kidding.But I think I’ll share a few facts that maybe people don’t know about me and it sometimes cost a little confusion to our relationships.. They will be honest, most reliable and truthful cause they came straight from me ūüôā

Fact 1 : I’m Polish. Born and raised there. Lived there for 29 years, then moved here… I finished all levels of education in Poland… last one was the University of Agriculture in the city of Wroclaw. My major was”food¬†processing¬†”¬†:0… sounds a little exotic… I know, every time I tell people that, they look at me a little strange because it doesn’t ¬†really say much about what it is. Well, there are engineering studies about different technologies to make different foods, for example: milk and all dairy products, meats, sodas, beers, bread ext. 5 long years of intensive studies to learn certain processes from the beginning to the end. I always loved chemistry and back then I very much wanted to work in a lab. It was an interesting, white apron, clean job. Unfortunately chemistry wasn’t the only classes I ¬†had to take. There was this one called “physical chemistry” and ¬†it very efficiently thwarted my plans.¬†The class took two years and I couldn’t say what it was about and still can’t. Lectures and lab works were a pure nightmare.¬†I consider myself an intelligent person and always knew that two plus two is four, but I didn’t understand even one class. And then there was this awful, mean professor who didn’t take any time to explain any of that…stuff. I guess I was lucky(!) to somehow pass the test. Based on that ( and many others) experience, I slowly lost interest to study and instead of learning, reading and remembering, I was sliding through my classes and passed tests with ¬†a lot of help from others. Not a proud moment. I ended up dropping out of the regular program on my 4th year and went to work. I think I was always a man of action¬†rather than a student. I thought it’s better to have an experience in actual work than just in knowledge. At the end of the day, I like to feel tired and see the results right away rather than learn hundreds of books by heart. I want It here and now! Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I have a million ideas per minute?Hhhmmm….don’t know. I lose interest in one and move to the next one…. So.. I’m not a patient person. Never was and still not am.But I’m working on it. I know it’s a very useful skill to have.

Eventually, I ended up finishing my classes going by a weekend program for 1 year. I passed the final exam and I officially have a degree in engineering… uufff

Fact 2: I generally like people and I am a loyal friend.

I always have luck to meet good people…..

The trick is I either like someone from the beginning or not.¬† The maybe is rare.. I can’t really explain it further and it’s mostly vibes I receive from people that has anything to do with it. Everybody has different personalities, mine is a little sophisticated and not everyone can/ wants to deal with it.Fair.¬†The same here. I also feel if people like me or not..this is how it works.Right?¬†I have a history of making mistakes in this matter, but mostly I know right away if I want to meet the person again or not. Period.

Fortunately, I like way more people than I dislike, but to be my best friend is a step up ūüôā Truth be told, I have only a few best friends.. ¬†One of them lives in Poland with her family and I see her only once or twice a year. It’s been 14 years that we live like that and each minute is a treasure. Every time we talk is like we just finished yesterday and now continue the conversation. No awkward moments. It’s fantastic. One of a kind, and rare. Most of all we can count on each other. So far, more me on her…Remember( ‚ÜĎ) this tough period I had at school¬†? It’s mostly her who helped me pass all the tests and exams. She pulled me thru classes, let me copy her notes and reports and made sure I appeared at the labs. I owe her big time. And even when we fought, she still managed to watch my back. All this because she wanted it. Besides she is super smart, intelligent and very funny soul and has no time for BS!

My friends like me for who I am…with all my dos and ¬†dont’s. I try to be as honest as possible to avoid any confusion. Sometimes I hear that I’m¬†not friendly, rude and behaving like queen bee . I say, I’m super shy! Really! ¬†I’m not a talker, and I don’t need people around me, so I don’t have a natural instinct to throw myself at people at first sight ( just recently I tried that once and I think the girl is scared for life :)). But I’m funny, I genuinely ¬†care not to hurt anybody’s feelings,¬†I’m helpful and loyal. ¬†When or if someone betrays my trust, I don’t forget.There¬†was a few work related situations with “mean”girls, where I had to put my pride aside and step down to their level to “fit in”. It cost me a lot of frustration and sleepless nights. It wasn’t easy. I usually rather take a separate way towards good energy….. Asta la vista babe! I avoid people who manipulate others, talk behind someone’s back, put others down to feel better ¬†about them selves and ¬†are just simply stupid. Like loyalty is the most important thing to me in any of my relationships, the stupidity is the worst crime. Everything what’s bad comes from being stupid. I just have no patient for that -remember? ¬†Everybody has a right to make mistakes, but learning from them is a skill that not everybody has….I’m sensitive, but on the other hand I don’t need to prove anything to anybody… all my friends know I know everything the best and I’m always right… hahahahahaha… I told you I’m funny! ūüėČ

Fact 3: I’m opinionated.

I find it really hard to express my opinions, since a lot of times people complain ¬†that their feelings are hurt… Well, ¬†the truth hurts sometimes. But delivered the right way, it may be constructive. I found it that ¬†most complainers are people who don’t have ANY views on anything and don’t really understand a lot. An intelligent conversation then is impossible, so they make up twisted, sick stories as their ideas. I had some trouble in the past when I had to explain myself, what I said, what tone, why and what words in specific I used… ¬†And let me tell you it was so easy to manipulate me because of my accent….I learned this lesson well and I don’t feel ¬†the need anymore to make people ¬†hear me out and rarely persuade anybody to my rights. Although I don’t share my views often, I certainly have a strong opinion about a lot of things. But I’m not stubborn. If someone ¬†is trying to convince me of something and the arguments are right, I can bend (a little) and consider. To every judgment I have to grow though, like a peach ;)… Having the advantage to live in two countries gives me an opportunity to experience more, and of course I know more than some! Watching TV( could be sometimes misleading), talking to people, having a passion and reading(!) help too. I appreciate talking to someone who has ¬†knowledge based on their own studies, than with someone who just repeats someone else’s slogans…We are lucky to be able to have our own opinions, so let’s use this privilege !! Besides I don’t understand people who don’t read…A house with out books is like a garden without flowers. Do you know how much you are ¬†missing?! ¬†If only some would take a book instead wasting time on BS, it would have an impact on the world, I promise! …I love to read…… but about that later….

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The power of positive thinking

Today is a little bit more serious then normal. A little politics through my personal observations ūüėȬ†I promise it will be nothing heavy, so you can sit comfortably and read it. You might not know all, but I think it’s important to share…

I must admit I never understood politics and it was always way out on the orbits of my interests. In one ear , out the other. I would rather stick to pretty things like shoes and purses ūüôā Not having an opinion about “stuff” important for my countries, never bothered me, but since I will vote this next presidential election I figure, I need to cover at least the basics. So now I pay more attention to what’s going on in ¬†the political arena, who are the candidates and what they are all about…. sort of…it’s still monotonous and sometimes pissing me off, but with a glass( or two) of some good wine I try can to sit still for a while and listen to that¬†mumble jumble. Countless rally’s,meetings, debates and caucuses? hey, no problem…;)I hope they know what they doing, cause I don’t… In my mind everything can be really simple. We all know what’s not working right now, so why not to try to change it, go ¬†in a different direction. Years of mistakes and disappointments has it’s toll on all of us: you- Americans, dual citizens like me, many legal immigrants and other aliens, who are not quite legal. I just feel like instead grow, learn, discover and improve, we are stuck¬†somewhere in time.What has worked in “ancient” times is not necessarily good for XXI century. Times are changing and we need to change with it.¬†Instead they talk about the same issues over and over again. I understand sometimes for a stupid question they need to give a stupid answer but still…This seems to me very boring, controversial, sometimes infertile and just simply dirty. Political battles become their personal wars. Like game cocks(?) trying to prove their rights. Sometimes listening to this ¬†I wonder is there room for healthy, selfless politics? On top of that, with everything that’s happening around the world now, it’s hard to get my head straight and really prioritize what is the most crucial thing I will care most for, what’s second, third and so on.. I don’t understand how every state has it’s own law!?? One country- 50 different rights, so now what state is better to live in? sorry a little weird to me….For newbie like me and most important new American citizen, it’s significant to know that my vote¬†will count and make a difference and it will better mine and my family’s future…….Hopefully our new Boss will find the right path and pass his test in living color!

Quick question… Is it true that because Massachusetts is a “Democrat” state,any ¬†Republican votes won’t count?? what the heck! Where is the democracy in that..

In the meantime, in my other country…

Just recently in Poland we elected a new government and new president Mr.Andrzej Duda. Younger, modern, well educated and very well spoken lawyer. It’s like 180 degrees in different direction what was before. I guess a lot of polaks agreed that is time for changes, finally. I certainly hope it’s a good change and not like before, Polish interest will be a priority!

There were two main political parties, PO and PiS that compete in a poll for presidency. I was actually there in this historical moment, so the news is first hand ūüėČ The fight was very heated. And like here, controversial and sometimes dirty, but in the end a more humanly candidate ¬†won.

The elections were democratic. And in my understanding that means ¬†most polaks voted for new PiS. But unfortunately for old PO it doesn’t mean the same. Against all odds they wanted ¬†to overthrow the new government and convince¬†the public that they didn’t want new, they want old¬†back!!! I guess the spectacular failure was hard to swallow…. They were telling people what they want! ¬†I just don’t like when I’m told what I want or what I need by some stranger…that really touched my nerves. it was pathetic to watch how they pull all lose strings to stay in charge….Sorry, they deserve to loose…..

The opponents of PiS felt threatened big time.They knew their power time has ended. ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬†They felt unpunished¬†and all those years of doing¬†what they wanted, saying what they wanted, miss informed and hid a lot of information in TV, media, banks, police and many others resorts of polish existence, is now done.!. ¬†So they manifested ¬†a rally. Criticizing the president and new government, elections and us people… Those “big” journalists, politics and celebrities we looked up to for years, now show the lack of propriety and pride, using swears on national TV¬†to demonstrate unhappiness. One radio manager even expressed his sorrow by allowing our national anthem to be an interlude between programs ! Awful..

What’s even more scarier now, the whole European Union is involved in our domestic disturbances. Dragged by PO leaders to the battle of power. And again, convincing European politicians that elections weren’t democratic. wwwrrr… Some of you probably know now there is a huge problem¬†and¬†untouched issues with fugitives from “Syria” that need to be solved fast, since they overflowed European countries.. Instead, the future of Europe is put on the back burner, and time, money and energy ¬†is focused on something that shouldn’t be a concern any more like democracy, overthrowing of the regimes and fighting for freedom.

Refugees are a big headache for Europe these days.There are so many of them! ¬†It’s different to show pictures of women with kids and elders, ¬†while most of them are men in their thirties. Young, healthy guys who should fight for the freedom of their country. It was like that for ages. All the world wars were fought for what’s is right.. Who else if not them should fight the regime in Syria? But instead they were promised a future in Europa. They chose the easy way to settle in some safe Heaven like Germany, Sweden or Denmark with the best social security, so they really don’t have to do anything else… Wouldn’t you like this? Many of them don’t have any documents confirming they are Syrian… There is proof that among those jumping thru barricades are killers, rapist and terrorists. ¬†Right when I was leaving Poland, there were new reports that in Cologne, Germany alone, there were hundreds of incidents of rape and molestation of women, by refugees…

Even now writing this ¬†I’m upset..

I’m a very lucky ¬†girl. I can call home, two great countries : Poland and USA. And I just simply want that all the decisions being made are sensible. And even someone like me with no political bone in my body will still understand what is important. And hope our needs, my countries and mine, will meet somewhere in the middle.


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Miracle diet, how I gain pounds in America

Let’s start with a statement – I feel I’m loosing weight right now and it feels so good ūüôā

Yeah, my weight was all over the place these last few years. Up and down,like mirroring stages in my life. It took me sometime to realize it and¬†slowly I wanted ¬†to get back to MY OWN¬†normal…..

It is all in your head!

Dah dah…I know, I didn’t discover Ameryka, but based on my own (short so far) experience I can tell you this is it! ūüôā

From the beginning,

I was skinny. Not anorectic but healthy shape with muscles here and there and no fat… ¬†I never cared much about body images,diets and loosing weight because for me my body was normal and I’ve never known any other way….Truth be told, I constantly spent ¬†time outdoors with friends playing games. Four seasons a year. Nothing could scare us from seeing each other…. I walked around my town a lot – to school and back, shopping, visiting friends and family as well as¬†attending a lot of different activities after school. I was one busy munchkin back then.¬†As a teenager I also played a lot of different sports like volleyball, basketball, tennis and swimming. And at home, always had homemade meals. Going out to restaurants wasn’t an option, simply it wasn’t our tradition and it wasn’t that popular, so my poor mama, every single day after work, had to cook dinner for us. Some how it worked. I wasn’t a big dinner eater then, but was always hungry for sugar,candy and chocolate ūüėČ To make food more interesting for me, my dad usually made ¬†different suppers ( I’m a daddy’s girl). Funny little sandwiches out of fresh bread. But mostly I liked time we spent together. My parents slowly had to introduced me to different tastes and texture of food. There was a time I didn’t think about real food at all. Are you kidding me? It was the least of my worries…

I remember a situation when my grandparents realized my unhealthy eating habits. I had to eat dinner at their house and the truth came out.. they saw me putting 5 teaspoons of sugar into a glass of tea! yes five!The sugar¬†couldn’t dissolve well, so I ended up drinking sugar with tea instead… I was happy but they were grossed out at first and then really upset with me… I had no desire to eat dinner…. we end up having this long and intense conversation( mostly my grandma was talking and I was crying) about “at my age” not eating properly, eating junk and to much sugar. I heard about how they ( my mom and her) slave all day so I can have a healthy, delicious dinner on the table and I just didn’t care. ¬†And so many people are starving each day and I have everything and still don’t care… Sounds familiar? I guess the speech had to be powerful enough, because I don’t remember any other problems with my eating any more. I learned my lesson and just like that become a regular girl…. ūüėČ

Time has past… and about 16 years ago I arrived to America. My first food related memory was chocolate chip cookies..I never had them before. They were soooooo good! Yummy, gooey and so unhealthy. I ate them for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Never even thought once that it may be dangerous for my weight..remember I never had those kind of problems! ¬†I realized quite quickly that something is wrong, when I couldn’t button up my jeans…but still naively convinced myself my jeans shrink in the wash… ¬†I was silly! And then came the rest…. Food was all around me and I didn’t even have to cook for myself or think about it at all… Back then I was living with a family who owned restaurants…so naturally everything I wanted was there… Here as well, I tried Chinese for the first time. Yummy!!! Dunkin DONUTS¬†– yum, brownies- yes please and of course bread- I love bread! I was eating up my loneliness. I was missing my family and friends and felt insecure about my English and meeting people.. After two years my face was looking like a full moon and the rest of the body grew 3 sizes more! Hhhhhmmm weird, I wonder why!?¬†I decided I’m going back home!

I was breaking up with America for about two years.. At home again I played tennis,signed up for Pilates, cooked (or not) for myself and most of all walked, walked, walked everywhere! Lost all the extra kilos and then some.. I was soo happy. That’s what was working for me there… Again, this was me normal…


I chose to return to Cape Cod. For sometime I worked in the restaurant, but not like before, I had no time to taste any food. Dining rooms were constantly busy, so I had my hands full with sitting people, delivering food, cleaning up tables,cashing out, take out and taking care about unhappy(!) customers. A real reel….I was surviving on a bowl of soup or a salad and lots of ginger ale…and obviously was very skinny… Bones and skin…Got married, quite the restaurant biz and discovered … vino! With no work, nothing to do, wine was my only friend…pathetic…

Hold on because we going down again!

Got a new job… At first it was awesome. Everything new, new people, new stuff to learn, but after a few years it was… boring…and no perspectives for a better future. I jumped into wine and cheese and going out for dinner, an¬†every night routine. I was so depressed I didn’t feel like cooking… As a result I was a size 12 sometime pushing 14… constantly tired, headaches, stiffness, no energy to do anything…not happy with myself. The best place was my bed or couch with the tv on…some steak with wine, sometimes ice cream. Ideal… Well not so. In my inspirational moment, I said STOP¬†to this. Finally I needed some changes. I quit yet another job, went home(Poland) for some quick “rehab”( home cooked food, no wine, a lot of fruits and veggies and walking). I came back a whole new person.

This is what I do:

  • every morning 5-15 min of some exercise of any kind : stretching, jumping jacks, push ups, leg squats, bicycle crunches, balancing table pose, side legs lifts. Absolutely anything. I concentrate on my legs and bum- chicks.. 15-30 times each side..I like to feel my muscles and each time I feel I did something good for myself… but really no stress.
  • I really pay more attention to what I eat now.. And it’s not a diet. I eat everything but what’s important is how I eat..¬†I try not to mix protein with carbs… instead each of them separately with different kind of vegetables… and a lot of fruits. But if I feel like chocolate or ice cream I have it… So far I’m really impressed with the results. Feel lighter, not that exhausted at the end of the day. And I absolutely love to buckle my belt on the fourth hole not second or even third!!
  • fish oil… I know yuk! but it’s super healthy, a great source of vitamin D… a happy vitamin.
  • I read a lot too… makes me smarter and that makes me happier…

That’s it… I got inspired to exercise by Ewa Chodakowska a polish fitness guru ( you tube) and ¬†about food I read on a blog of Polish health guru Agnieszka Maciag… it works for me, it will for you… Good luck

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